Gloomy soul for the dazzle era

The clock shows 3 AM, I'm still very awake.
All I do is scrolling the phone, look at a great moment, a pretty face, and other people's achievements, everything was super great.
It became a horrible addiction, I feel worst and want to be another person sometimes. 
Sucks feelings, when you try to reject yourself. 

My head is murmuring.
People are insane, me either.
The 'hi!', that chit-chat, boring fake smile, make me overwhelmed. 

Fake the things, for the sake of a perfect impression.
I know that was the natural instinct of humans, but it's too much and it wasn't normal at all.
We begin habitually to ignore our conscience, go in the opposite to ourselves.
Moving fast without substance.
I wish I can keep the ground below my feet.